Is there any way i can make school... less depressing i guess?

i'm failing in every subject, save english (which i don't enjoy very much if at all). this has been a consistent trend in all of my time in school.. i've been shoved into special ed since first grade. where the kids eat glue and the teachers are losing their hair from having to deal with oversized children. i think the worst part is that my problems are small even though they feel big which makes *me* feel like a piece of ****, because i kind of am. i guess i'm just at a loss at what to do. without an education i have no future, and honestly i wouldn't want one even if i did. at the same time i don't want to die either, i just sort of want to be in a coma or something. i want to improve but at the same time i'm at a loss at what to do